jagged rocks on her cheeks
glittering like sharks
swimming in moonlight
on your embrace
in the afternoon light
no one can find us here
My heart started beating again
the day you touched it so warmly
silent and knowing like the moon
watching us fools try to capture Destiny.
The darkness that once bruised my entire skin
now just reaches for the light.
I saw when you looked at me
I don’t understand
how such few words
could hold our hearts
so close, on a palm of colors we can’t
see. Vibrating to sounds we can’t hear.
Singing as our future gently unfolds
like an unfurling leaf reaching for rain
or a sail opening itself to the wind
I didn’t have my head on straight
winding highways and canyons
lost, last year, I found
solace in a barren tree
It is your birthday again
of hiding from a day
like asking thunder
from lightning follow
clear as horizons
after lifted fog
shaping the space
into new mourning
The roaring train above our heads
more comforting than the the longing
Achingly beautiful in a sad repose
waiting for his breath on my cheek
Big lettered graffiti
on brick red New York faces
and booming hip hop in underground bars
isn’t loud enough to drown out
the water going straight from the heart
to my eyes, pouring as beautiful
and effortless as a peaceful fountain
onto green and wet stone. Inescapable
silence, from my unanswered questions.
A still pond waiting, for the waterlily to bloom.
you burned a scar
onto my chest
your mark, a fire
in a freeze,
covers the hole
while snow wraps ’round my knees
I could not lie to Spring
my scar and turned you to snowflake
so when I held you
again in my hands
you walked inside my heart
and gave me roses to smell
for months I cherished the petals
while the roses fell
you brought my heart more flowers
and sadly they all died
i watered them every morning
with tears of weeping, I tried.
I couldn’t save the romance, dead
nor shut my eyes for days
my spirit fell apart in bed
but your roses stayed.
You tried to feed me flowers
while demons stole my brain
when all my fingers and blood were yours
nothing of me remained.
You lived inside of my heart all winter.
Why the Hell did I let you stay?
A million rose petals
and flowers rotting
in sweet perfume decay.
In March you’re sticking thorns to ribs
but to kill you would kill me too
so I spend my life watering dead petals
still hoping for a me and you.
It started with all of you
And ended with none of me
It rained for days
in my bedroom of blue
And you thought this was simple
But love is a Monster
that doesn’t go away
whine like a dog
’til he turns his head.
sing loud enough
and someone will open the door.
a sleeping beauty slumber.
you think you will be better.
Forest of thunder
you fool, lost in the lightning made
brightening your grey sky for one moment.
He’s not near
thunder is the only sound
and the ripples hurt
again and again
the thunder quiets
are in the woods alone.
the sky won’t mend your wounds.
your tears won’t water the earth.
The mirror he gifted your heart.
part with yourself
to forget the one
I can erase a sentence in pencil
I can off sand from the pages
I can throw away the dead flowers
and wash the dirty sheets.
I can delete a mistake in a message
or pick up the underwear from the floor
clean up the mess in my bedroom
but not the mess in my head.
I can sweep up the broken glass
and bandage my burnt hand
I can throw away the evidence
and take out the trash again.
I can run to the cold blue mountain
leave tears by the river in prayer
write all of the boys who love me
I can even write you, too.
I can drink until my brain is wet
and cry to call upon Sleep
I can burn the cigar until it’s all gone
but how do I get rid of you?
I can’t delete the mistake I made.
I can’t erase your words.
I can’t blow you out of my dreams like dust
or throw you out like trash.
You are not as joyful as the blue mountain
Or beautiful like dead flowers
You have brought more pain
than the flames to my hand
So I will erase you,